I’m outside smoking a cigarette because just standing in that house, my pulse has been racing so fast for so long that I feel like I could collapse and fucking die. I’m acknowledging this moment so that I REMEMBER the feeling should I try to reconsider. I haven’t gotten so much as a “sorry.” If she comes out here and smokes a cigarette next to me silently, I think I’ll pack my shit up right fucking now and be out of town by tomorrow.

Say somethin'.